Last nights Grammies was very moving on so many levels. I asked a friend earlier in the night if he was going to watch to which he said, “I have better things to do than watch a bunch of famous people celebrate themselves.” Well that maybe true and yes maybe we aren’t all going to…

I think we all remember our first love. Or at least the first time we could recognize that warm feeling of love. My first love was always my dad. Even as a baby he was my world. I would cry if he wasnt holding me when I knew he was home. I would come in…

Sometimes I wonder if me sharing everything that makes me me will push people away. Then I realize how before I started expressing how I was feeling that I already felt alone. Since starting to forgive myself and moving past all the hate and guilt my relationships have become stronger. It is hard for me…

This week started off so bad. At therapy on Monday my husband joined our session. He hasnt really known me to show raw emotion or weakness. My therapist hasnt really seen it either. The point of my weekly appointments was to combat any potential pre/post partum somehow through the process we have uncovered alot of…

So for any of you who have been following you know the pivotal point to my life path going in the direction that it did was the abuse I sustained as a young girl. The main reason why I am in therapy was from this happening to me. I failed to protect that little girl….

I know my blog is so all over the place. The main thing for me is it is just a platform for me to share and express how I am feeling without overwhelming or upsetting anybody. I know how busy everybody is in their lives so I would hate to be a burden. Lately life…

There is something to be said when you are with someone who completely adores you. Since the birth of our son we have been pretty much together 24/7. Most relationships wouldnt fare so well but ours has seemed to have thrived. Relationships have always been hard for me. I am irrational, hard to deal with…

Time sure flies. I have been so caught up in my head that I totally forgot what day it is even. There is so much going on that I just wish it would slow but it is the slow periods that get me thinking most that just paralyzes my day. It is so hard to…

Hello 2018! This year is going to be way different for me then most. The most obvious…I am a mom. What a journey it took to be here. The start of the year is always a good time to set out goals. Yes I got on the scale, yes it was hard so yes it…