Suicide only truly hurts the living. At least for the one who saw it as their only way out. The suffering that they leave behind is now a noose around someboy’s else’s neck. Maybe it isn’t courageous to take that root. When you consider living in a World that can’t be satisfied no matter how selfless and hard you personally try. I am going to keep searching for a way to heal what I can.
Nobody can devalue your currency if you stand proud and tall. Know your self worth. Know the impact you can have on the World. In the face of negativity turn away. There is only strength when you allow there to be. You can’t fan a flame with no wind and eventually that flame will die if it is not fed. Let fear and negativity fall at your feet as you find the courage to walk in thy own image sheltering others in your wake.
I had been caught up to some degree with the outside competition of who was truly living happier. I gave all that up though when my son was born. Him happening into our lives in the manner and way that he did shows me that sometimes you just have to exist and nothing more. The day is going to happen wheather you get out of bed or not.
Nobody ever after a heated argument feels good. Words have been exchanged, controversial points have been made and more often than not feelings have been hurt. If this is a case then this argument will live inside of you for days and weeks ahead. You will use the basis of that argument as fuel to heat up your next. It infects everything you do until you not only forgive yourself but forgive the other party for their participation too. Your mood and energy is contagious.
The feeling of never amounting to anything now became her centre. If her parents were embarassed of who she was then she should be too. Destined to never hold her chin up she was determined to not let them see what they did to her. It was the only satisfaction she got. Be hard enough so they don’t know how badly cracked you truly are. Believe and trust nobody, including herself.
I used to sit there for so long and listen to those that I love talk down to me like I was never going to amount to anything. A waste of life those closest to me said. A constant disappointment. It became far easier to believe those lies then to fight against the surge of ignorance bound my way. When you stop believing in yourself and what could possibly be you find yourself in a very dangerous, toxic place.
Our house is bursting with love from all of our furbabies, our family and our friends and neighbours that happen through our doors. We are building a different reality that is based on a more positive note. We know that in numbers we can make a difference no matter the size. That in unity we will find a way to heal the World and if not we will heal each other and find sanity in a sad reality.
Scared that I would never get there. Scared that I would always feel like I wasn’t going to be worthy of a decent man’s attention….you can go on forever about the things in the future. What I began to realize is that future point I was thinking of really didn’t matter. That if I didn’t get out and smell the daisies the whole World would pass me by. My fear of the future kept me from living.
As my order is given to me. I smile lovingly as I feel all warmed from the memories. The coffee feels even warmer in my hands as I thank the employee and drive away. I can’t help but take one more glance at the energy and life coming from the lobby. As I drive around I even see the men who still smoke hanging out around back. I wonder why it is so we don’t appreciate what it is we have? I am always guilty of this.
Hence why everything that was once loved returns to death. In time nature will reclaim everything. That is just the way the World works. It doesn’t care about fame or fortune or those you had to hurt to get what you had. For those who live in tranquility when the end begins to loom they know this is just part of life’s path. It doesn’t conclude the journey it just tranforms into a new way of being.