From All Sides

I stretch my hand as far as it can go into the cold dark hair. Stretching my finger tips I think I can feel something. Sadly though whatever it is in front of me it is not my destiny to walk by it’s side. Forever cast aside in the shadows of my melancholy I struggle…

Without Compassion

Have you already survived the most painful period of your life? Do you even have a clue on what could possibly bring you to your knees and keep you on the ground? Have you ever considered the little blip in your life is just that the tiniest bit of blip? There is no denying that…

When the Rules Don’t Apply

Waking up from my slumber I can’t deny the inevitable. My tear stained pillow tells me that I spent the majority of the night crying. Don’t worry though. My tears were done in my subconscious mind. In my dream like state I am free to let what is rotting through my inside out to dance. The…

Hope As Our Saviour

Guess some of you are thinking why the sudden change? Like many it came when my husband is sitting home for 10 days until he gets the all clear after showing signs of COVID. So like so many of us in confinement we are stuck at home with our spouses. I already knew that for…

Strength Amongst Friends

It’s incredible how many of us decide what is normal and what we can tolerate. For me I there was two main reasons that always stopped me from sharing too much. One of course was the shame that comes with being in something less than perfect. We all want that Hollywood love storey. Those I…

My One Sided Marriage

To deprive yourself of passion is something I have become somewhat of an expert on. I never thought that I would have it in me to sit calmly and allow the tidal wave of nothingness consume me.  To believe the lies or prove them truths is something we all must decide. There are trade offs…

Rich in History Richer in Roots

Alone in my melancholy I always felt like I never belonged. Not for trying on my part but my anxiety always had a hold on me. Even now my breath catches in my chest and makes it slightly heart to focus. In a way though I enjoy the reminder. The reminder to stop and try to…

The Value in a Moment

Our own disillusioned self righteous entitlement have always been our own demise. Although in one sense it is great to hold yourself in high regard it is all together a hindrance when you are unable to show compassion for your fellow being. At one time I wanted the whole World to recognize. I thought the…

Continual Rebirth and Evolution of Spring

So today is Easter. Just as we have handed down our traditions we see a funneling of brainwashing that has occurred throughout time.  Google the origin of Easter. There will be tons of references to the resurrection of Christ. This all makes sense given that Spring is the time of year for birth and regeneration…

If the Truth is Out There

I remember as a child asking my dad about religion. My senses told me there was something more to just our mere existence. Life felt bigger than what was intended, or at least what I could see right in front of me. My closest friend was an advocate for Church so I needed to know,…