Just a Housewife

It has to be me. I must be manic. My preconceived ideal of how marriage exists doesn’t exist at all. It was never even real to begin with. Growing up I remember my mom doing more traditional women roles and my dad was just ol hard working man. On weekends he would be doing your…

Believe in You

The thing about age is we are always in such a rush to get there then once we are we spend the rest of our lives trying to get back. I still remember the first few winters here in Calgary and that feeling of just utter rejection and dejection. When I first got here I…

Like Mind Like You

I guess in essence this is how most of us feel, isn’t it. My husband is always asleep and never notices me. Unless of course I am spending money then nothing gets him picking up the phone faster. My son is screaming in that language that I should understand but it is the last word…

Of Love and Light

For every moment I found myself loved I found myself gravitating light. There is this overpowering emotion that erupts when you start echoing the sounds of your true heart. Moments in time take us to where we need to go to be frozen in eternity. Impervious to all other surroundings, peaceful in our serenity. If…

The Crossroads of Denial and Realism

I had to. I had to come downstairs. Correction run downstairs after¬† I don’t know how many glasses of champagne. I have to write. Almost like keep taunting me and telling me I am worthless and all I want to do is prove you wrong. How many edibles do you feed me before you knocked…

A Fairytale Gone Wrong

I can’t imagine the life one has to endure in order to deem it necessary to have all their pieces squished back together. You can never be rebuilt the same. When something rocks you to your core and brings you to the brinks of your own sanity what could it all mean anyways? For some…

The Wall

There is only so much one person can take when it seems like they are talking to a wall. No matter how hard I beat my head against it there is nobody there to answer me. Sometimes I feel I must have died and I am here to float above the other’s existence. There is…

Put On Ice

Fate, The possibility of a chance meeting. For no other reason than two world’s colliding but as fast as they found each other they were destined to part,¬† There was no way of knowing when it happened or if it ever did but a part of my soul felt your presence before my heart and…

My Beautiful Friend

If I go through those hospital doors again like it was the first time do you promise to wake up? I guess by the time we got there you were already gone it was just so hard for us to let go. Maybe if I blamed you it would make it easier on my heart…