A conversation about mortality had to happen with all things going around our house these days. Losing the baby, his friend’s passing and now a family member of ours is in the hospital and it looks like they are not going to be able to return home. Through no fault of your own. Truly. If you were even a sliver of your former self what happened wouldn’t have been so complicated but with age we all get weak and things happen that would normally not happen and now here we are. What is most important about this chatter is that on the way out my husband was talking about how sorry that this was all happening. And without thinking I asked Why? None of us can escape death, it comes for every single one of us. He stopped talking and began thinking and so did I.
Driving past all the houses and fences some up kept some boarded up I couldn’t help but think that what was in tatters was somebody else’s dream come true. Somebody else took such immense pride when they first came to be living on that property and now look at how it stands withered and aged. I couldn’t help but wonder if they were still of this Earth or if they fulfilled their celestial purpose here on Earth. I looked at the trees and the creeks that inhabited the fields and couldn’t help but think of how long it was all just as it was. Trees have been here for hundreds of years. They have seen things some of us have never seen. They are living somewhat breathing things that we all seemed to take advantage of our ignore. We carve initials on their bark and other animals take up habitat within their lives. Whatever we need to sustain us nature has provided there was no need to add anything more.
Once again trying to start a conversation he asked if I thought the World would ever be “normal” again. Of course I believe that life as we know it will correct itself like it has done for thousands of years. The only concern that I have is what all this science, medicine and technology is doing is prolonging the inevitable. What we were supposed to learn in life was not to prolong the inevitable. We were supposed to learn and embrace each other with infinite kindness and hope that we can save mankind and work towards a better future. Plagues come throughout history to thin out the pack. We as humans were never supposed to over populate the Earth and take over Nature like it was our prize to win. Nature will begin coming for us in all the ways predicted. I hate to point any fingers anywhere but it easy to spot those with ill intentions. I mean look at the way that hate groups justify their actions like they are blessed or something. We had a white pride parade in our city can you believe there is such a thing? Every person that marched in that parade became the executioner in those gas chambers that Hitler used to annihilate millions. Imagine having a parade to celebrate the inhumane torture of over 11 million human beings in today’s time. Oh wait we just did. We allowed the blood spilled in those chambers wash through our streets as hate began to blanket our town. One proud member punched a disabled man 3 times in the face before he turned his rage onto his wife. This is who some people are now. Who wants to live where this kind of hate is celebrated in our streets. I speak of hate because when it comes to life how dare anybody infringe their feelings and beliefs onto anybody else but here we are acting violent and ending lives just for literal shits and giggles.
Everybody feels like somebody because somebody else decided to take it away. We cry over spilled milk while billions die from lack of it. We are all very lucky to be where we are with the potential to all have a good life lived but we can’t. We can’t love unconditionally with no strings attached because there is always the risk that they will one day take their love away. Their love will go away but why does that matter why close your heart off from what nature intended to be full and nourished and bloomed. That has now become who I am wanting to be somebody who loves those even the ones who aren’t worthy. Not because of who THEY are but because of who I am. We all were the life of a party at one time weren’t we? Then all of a sudden we are reduced nothing at all. You could be taken painfully, suddenly or maybe peaceful in your sleep. None of us can escape it though everyday that passes takes us one step closer to that door. I had to ask my h
Now my turn to ask the question because it has been eating at my mind. Have you ever had the conversation with somebody that if their life was ever reduced to an incapacitated brain or body where there was no quality at all would you promise to take them out to the mountains and leave me up there. Some say to shoot them and my mother was always just let me fend for herself. Would you support them in assisting suicide knowing that the person they once was is no longer there? Maybe it is Dementia, Parkinson’s, Mania or whatever it maybe who has stolen them away but I mean don’t allow the Doctors to be the ones can you be the one administering that kiss of death? Don’t allow the Doctors to be the one and have that dark secret weighing heavy on their heart. We need to be more accountable and present in the lives we live instead of looking for longevity and prolonging the end.