We can only stay unplugged for so long before the anxiety creeps. Case and point entirely is when we go out to the acreage to spend time in our Bus. One day we will have to brainstorm up a name but for right now that is pretty much all I can say about it. It is parked at a family members and it is an old legit tour bus and we are just spending time trying to wrinkle out all the chaos. For now there is no WiFi but by the way the tides are turning it is going to be a necessity for all that I plan to achieve in this next year. That is what has had me thinking about the idea of staying unplugged and what it could possibly mean. Especially for those of us trying to make it on-line by igniting our passions that is why it is such a weird and toxic place to be, yet it is beneficial especially now in these turbulent and not so social times. At least here in our piece of the world as we lack serious leader guidance in all aspects. That is how I can see the unplug from social media to be so powerful because there is so much brainwashing that all takes place as well. My part in the ever evolving world of the internet is to be as honest and authentic as possible while living my best life and hopefully, just hopefully I can attract a strong community to me.
There should be no surprises to all that I had deactivated my Facebook. I would have deleted it but there is so many pictures and maybe some memories that I would like to remember so for now I opted to take a break. For me at the time there was so much negative energy making it’s way too me that I had to make a clean break and say goodbye. My Instagram account has never bothered me as much because for some reason it seems that there is less activity? Less negativity maybe. It has been way easier for me to turn on the blinders there then anywhere and I still like to be connected if you know what I mean. It is my preferred platform if I had to choose one. Facebook on the other hand is the crazy incestuous beast. So it seems that way at least to me, it is only been a month and a bit and I found myself faced with this predicament of making a choice. In the spirit of doing what I love I have decided to pursue a more active career in the beauty industry (more details to follow soon) when an incredible opportunity knocked on my door. When this choice presented itself to me it was a no brainer, but has now left me dazed and confused as the idea of reopening that cesspool of worms that had me logging off of Facebook in the first place. To be real it actually triggers me greatly signing myself up again to be subject to all that negativity and bullying abuse. However, Facebook is the medium they have chosen in which to educate their team so I had to log on back to Facebook after all. I am not going to tell you if I reactivated my old one or started anew sometimes the less details the better. Especially in this case for me. I want to be successful in life and I want to do it living closely to my passions. Something I have never been confident to do my whole life.
We drove off the grid yesterday, drove until the WiFi signals couldn’t find us. At least connect to our devices in our pockets just the towers in the distance as a phone usually does. At first when you disconnect from the internet you feel disoriented and lost as a ball begins to form in your throat. With your phone by your side you click it on and begin to check emails or social media or to see if anybody has called. What I found when I lost immediate access at my fingertips my anxiety crept in. Then I started thinking about life before we were all connected and how that would feel. You see I used to think that my biggest worry was dying in my house with nobody to find me. Now that is almost impossible to do. As soon as you disconnect completely everybody begins to worry and wonder where you are. When you aren’t connected so easily you feel like anything could happen, more than that if it did happen who would miss having you around. How long do you go missing before anybody notices. That was a very real possibility. Bodies deteriorating to nothing and nobody has even had an inkling that they should be alarmed. Now for most if you aren’t posting hourly everybody is contacted and asked if they have seen you and if anything is wrong.
So I disconnected for a day, give a take a few posts and an hour or two. Once I got used to the silence and to stop looking at my phone it was far easier to relax. It is important to fall off the grid for awhile. Maybe though while in good company so that I know not to get alarmed. Going forward though it is going to be harder to do that on the regular. Especially in these days when we are conditioned to hustle and grind. At least that is where I find myself in this moment of time. Hustle harder, work smarter, do what I need to do to try and make a name for myself and as a bonus I can start to provide. A controlling man may try to stop me but the tigress in me says no way.