When Backs Are Turned

I will never stop believing that good things will happen to you as long as you keep on trying. The kick as you are falling will always leave you gasping for air but if you are like me I would never give them the satisfaction of ever keeping me down in such a way.

I am still convinced if I keep on grinding that eventually it will have to pay off. Put measures in place to minimize the impact if it doesn’t work out but have the confidence to dust yourself off and pick yourself back up. Don’t look for help. Don’t look for guidance have faith in yourself and all the things that you have become.

Rejection hurts doesn’t it? Especially by those that you have come to adore. The ones you look up to, to radiate sunshine will have regurgitating your lunch and sometimes more. Did they really just say that? Is that how they really feel? I had no idea they felt this way about me. Not everything is as it seems.

What people say when others are not around is all for a little bit of attention. Did you hear what so and so did/said? Now you have caught the ears of every innocent bystander that happens to find themselves in the room. Is she for real? Could that really be true? Who cares when it comes to dishing out some juicy gossip. We can worry about the consequences once all the dust has settled.

I am hated by so many because I refuse to conform to anybody’s standards. If you do not like me that is your opinion and I won’t hold it against if you decide to turn and walk away. In fact let me help you out with a lil pocket change. The courtesy you extended me. I laugh now at your audacity and your over extended mortgage that has you crying most days to the bank. Not me.

I don’t have a dead end job or loser friends. Who has time to troll around the open shores looking for a victim when there are so many other beneficial things to do. I keep to myself. Grind. I keep to myself. Clean. The only thing I worry about in these days is me and mine and everybody else who is out there waiting I think it is time for you to walk away.

When friends become foes there is no turning back. I know what it feels like to be hated. I live that life every single day. What name will I be called day? Retarded? Stupid? Can’t you just use your brain? I live in a thoughtless bubble where nobody can harm me and no the bleach has not affected my IQ. I love what people say when they are angry, like it is easy for us to forget what it is they have to say. It’s like sending a missile to take out a city then apologizing for all the death and decay. You were fully aware of your target but not the guilt has taken you over making you sick. It isn’t my fault you have become such a monster and all those other bad things inside you that keep on making you tick.

Remember. If you keep on doing what you have always done and it hasn’t worked isn’t time you tried something else? There has to be some level of commitment but how would one decipher when it becomes you just wasting time? I guess that what be determined by how you quantify your life? We all have a minimal standard of living in which we like to engage in so living below that would come at the ultimate cost.

5 years should be the set standard to prove to you if there is anything that can come out of this. Unfortunately we live during a time where it is easiest to just do nothing and we can excuse away any objections in any which way that we can. What I despise about being human is this incestuous need to always get ahead. You lose sight of your dream and your focus when you put your blinders on to see green instead.

The goal, your goal, shouldn’t impose onto others. We shouldn’t get satisfaction out of taking the joy out of another being. The desire to compete in avenues we have no business in should begin to show fractures in every beings soul. We don’t need a new formula to make what we have better, what we need is for somebody to step in and say no more. We are draining all of our natural resources for the all mighty dollar. What do you think will happen when we get there? We all cease to exist over enough time so it’s back to where it all begins.

Good things. Trying. Hard work. Faith. You have to have some sort of idea what it looks like when you get there instead of letting the blind and dumb keep on controlling the rat race. What did you do today to manipulate the outcome of your day. If you sit around doing nothing how can you even end up with cake on your face? You have to try to fail just like you have to try to win. Both outcomes can be equally rewarding depending on what you put into it to make it out to be that way. I think putting the effort in is what makes it a win.

We are all struggling these days and I am just trying to create a safe place. A place free from virtual bullying in a social setting that brings us all together so we can feel safe and eventually win. There is a whole sea of unknown variables out there waiting to drag us under. I don’t wait for a second chance for the wind to blow me over, I just close my eyes and let the wind push my boat off to sail. I know it isn’t if you win or lose it is how many times you dust yourself off to try. If I listened to all those who were sent to defeat me I would have rolled right over and died.

2 Comments Add yours

  1. LAMarcom says:

    “I am hated by so many because I refuse to conform to anybody’s standards. If you do not like me that is your opinion and I won’t hold it against if you decide to turn and walk away. In fact let me help you out with a lil pocket change. The courtesy you extended me. I laugh now at your audacity and your over extended mortgage that has you crying most days to the bank. Not me.”

    I love your attitude!

    Cheers!

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