February 2023 – Miss Ruby Sweet Cheeks

To Co-Sleep or Dream?

Becoming a mom changed me as I constantly try to achieve perfection around the house. It is hard when it feels like nobody appreciates you so I have to constantly remind myself it is ok to appreciate myself. Ya right am I right? I hate that my son is becoming a little sponge

The Violation

Now I don’t want to be offensive to anybody but I want people to understand what it means to live that life. I remember selling crack and down to a known prostitute in our area and I never saw her smile only frown. I think it is glamorous for these online persona’s to be in control of their destination but what about the sex workers who paved the way who never got to have that control or even have their say.

A Hated Life

Imagine living this existence and I don’t mean just any existence I mean I have lived this life before. Somewhere between being a young girl and coming of age my eyes were wide open to what a relationship could possibly mean and I was scared of knowing more.

A Life Like This

How do you begin to move forward when the company you find yourself around wants to drag you right in? Drag you down to the depths of discontent, worry and abandonment the levels to which a normal person would have no choice but to go insane.

The Best Intentions

I can’t help but think about the greatest of lives and wonder why it is that they got taken out that way. The lives with the greatest potential to impact the most lives are the ones that we will get lost in the grind as we try to find them. At least their message isn’t lost.

Life In Its Glory

All I have to give is me, myself and all of my emotions that it stings like a bee when those I love keep pushing me away. How many chances do you give anybody before you turn and run away? I don’t know what to think any more all I know is that in the end love will always find a way so I hold onto that. All the love I have ever known and have come to know I hope that I will bask in all its glory one day.

Damaged Thinking

It’s the same way when you find yourself around somebody who is always in a bad mood. Maybe it is your positive energy that is irritating. Being a ray of sunshine isn’t for everybody, would you even believe? Some people get so angry when you smile and it’s their anger that gets me off. Why does one insist on being so nasty taking away from others instead of trying to get along with them instead?

The Power of Kindness

An Unseen Need

That’s where we go wrong. Failing to see the value that is derived from all life. We all were once a tiny seed until something got in our way and brought us into life. For no reason and if there was one it is completely out of our hands as we lose all types of control. We were never meant to be such an undesirable species hell bound and determined to destroy anybody who might have the courage to get in our way.

Dying to Live

We all die but so many of us waste our days trying to determine how it is we want to live. We get on that proverbial hamster wheel and just run with never knowing where we are going or if we will ever feel at peace again. It begins simply before we even realize what is happening and before we begin to grow into the entity that we were born to be.