Blessed

When everything is truly all said and done I do know that I am really blessed. It is still hard to accept this wonderful life that I had spent forever wishing for. You do truly become your own worst enemy at times and its only for those times leading up that you established a connection…

Message from Beyond

This is it. The day is almost here where I make my first public appearance as Sweet Ruby Bluez. I can’t believe it is almost here. The idea was born pretty much two years ago that I wanted to make a difference somehow someway and here I am. To some it is a little crazy…

The Unseen Sacrifices

Rolling over on our king size bed I saw the clock was 4am…Tons of time to sleep. I periodically get up at this time and catch up on my reading or cleaning. You know for those incredibly long days when your baby is up all day teething and sick and there was just no time…

Expanding Our Family

The only thing that I want to do is share this journey with you. I sure do know some of the lowest, darkest lows and if I can find a way to embrace each and everyday. I know that you can too. If we could only live in slow motion it would sure be alot…

Baby #2

Happy Friday Darlings thank you for checking in. As always I appreciate your love, support and friendship. Only together on a unified front can we make a change. My decision to open up and share in my journey was for alot of reasons. One day I hope to write a book to inspire our young…

Monday Blues?

I guess my coping skills are getting a whole lot better. I try very hard to be positive every day and its very easy for me to start spiralling negatively. Well the first thing that started this week was I spilled 200 ml of breast milk. I know no big deal right? Well kindof just…

Post Partum

I am not to sure if I am suffering from post partum, lack of sleep, or stress. I do feel majorly ripped off at how my baby was born. I miss that part of being pregnant. I was so excited watching my belly grow and I knew at 33 weeks it was just a matter…

First week of motherhood…

Well we survived our first week. You can never feel ready for motherhood, and I sure wasn’t. It took 3 days to meet my son because I was in ICU in recovery. So with that it also took 3 days to name him. It was sure annoying when the hospital staff kept asking what his…

One year anniversary

Yesterday was my one year anniversary. Its such an incredible feeling for over 20 years I struggled. I dated guys who didn’t deserve me, I didnt realize my self worth. I was stolen from, abused both mentally, physically and sexually. I may have drank too much and hung out with bad people. I tried every…