“Have a Credo”

Is it possible to live with a childlike heart without getting eatten up by the masses. That I am not entirely sure of. I spent the last year focusing on finding my smile. Doing things that I normally wouldn’t. Reminding myself of who I used to be. Before all the violence. Before all the abuse. I stopped listening to all the chatter that was trying to bind me to my past. I never really understood why some people could be so determined to destroy another being.

Loving and Losing An Addict

The monitors beeping tell us you are still with us. That cold dark feeling tells us you aren’t. Holding your hands, brushing your hair out of your eyes, rubbing your feet…all of desperate just to see you smile again. The only reason why you are still with us is our guilt. That is what keeps…

Life Itself

As my boys slept I happened apon this movie on Netflix, “Life Itself”. I have never heard of it and such is life when you rely on Netflix I thought I had seen or knew of what was on their playlist. The movie is a narrative that tells the storey from each individuals perspective and…

The Breakup

In today’s modernized world it seems that the Breakup is the greatest contingency plan that we all carry in our back pockets. Afraid to committ, afraid of not getting our way, afraid of losing who we are…are the one of millions exscuses we get when our significant other moves on. In some cases we are…

Look At Me

When the time to finally take a look inside of ourselves is finally here will we look at what relects back onto us and like what we see? Do we cringe at what we have done or will be doing and the thought of those actions we lose site of those consequences. In a world…

Ramblings of a tortured mine

My goal these days is to write down my feelings and thoughts like it was a journal. I post it publicly to hold me accountable. Thinking carefully about what I write in the sense we all fear to be judged. By others, the outside world, the inside world but we forget who’s opinion matters the…

War within Us

How do we know what battles to engage in and which ones to passively let by. Do we engage in the ones that affect the heart, mind or soul? Do you engage in nothing and just live at Peace? Can we truly live at Peace if we are battling a war amongst ourself? When do…