Death of a Salesman

More than a great literary piece. It feels like it is almost the death of an era. Let’s imagine. Here at my fingertips I can shop for anything that my heart desires and in some case have it delivered to my doorsteep the next day. How can you not get lost in the romance of…

Eye of the Beholder

My eyes are now focused on those that make their way in front of me. My reflection only  matters in their eyes no longer my own. Only I can truly know who I am on the inside for I am bestowed that pleasure. My work and focus now is to help others see the lady I have become and maybe in time help others find their way.

What if I am never good enough?

Who define’s good enough? Good enough for who? When we try to focus on ourselves we get told we are selfish. That we aren’t doing enough for the World. Does the whole World actually matter if on the inside we are falling apart? We weren’t designed to live this life in misery.

Random Acts of Kindness or a Selfish Stranger

Once that being no longer serves a purpose they become discarded and tossed like yesterday’s news. Only we do one better. When we decide to toss we also decide to burn the garbage on the way down to ensure zero to lil possibility of having any self esteem. What once looked like a caring friend now looks like that very disease that we have been trying so desperately to steer away from. There are so many ways to decipher through this mist of misconception. The pure of heart will never waiver in knowing right from wrong. Yes the untrained heart wants to believe that people will behave in the way that we have grown accustomed to.

5 Steps to Managing Depression

I am a firm believer that to some degree we can manifest our destiny. Some will say that this idea is absolutely ridiculous and of course on some level it is because if we could all will ourselves to be successful, famous, billionares we would be. What I am talking about is that peaceful feeling…

40 year old virgin?

Alright! So it seems like I have an even bigger mountain to climb than I had expected. Silly me for thinking that after two years of intimacy that it could be so easily changed. I kind of went with the age old clause that he was a man and most men need some level of…

Look At Me

When the time to finally take a look inside of ourselves is finally here will we look at what relects back onto us and like what we see? Do we cringe at what we have done or will be doing and the thought of those actions we lose site of those consequences. In a world…

40’s the new 20’s

On Friday I had the extreme pleasure to travel to Vancouver for a photoshoot that I had won back in the summer. Originally we had wanted to travel as a family but this photographer is very sought after in the pinup community so not wanting it to expire we decided that it would be best…

Moment

Do you realize the value in a moment? I sure do. The best ones we keep replaying in our heads. It helps us to continue on to give us strength. To see a different way of doing things. It used to be that all of my memories were so incredibly dark and depressing. Chasing the…

Darkness vs Light

The greatest evils of the world walks amongst us in a position of power, as our friends and as people we respect. Evil even takes on my forms in many different ways all designed for you to lose your power within yourself. The little piece of you that remembers what it feels like to dream,…