40 year old virgin?

Alright! So it seems like I have an even bigger mountain to climb than I had expected. Silly me for thinking that after two years of intimacy that it could be so easily changed. I kind of went with the age old clause that he was a man and most men need some level of…

Look At Me

When the time to finally take a look inside of ourselves is finally here will we look at what relects back onto us and like what we see? Do we cringe at what we have done or will be doing and the thought of those actions we lose site of those consequences. In a world…

Message from Beyond

This is it. The day is almost here where I make my first public appearance as Sweet Ruby Bluez. I can’t believe it is almost here. The idea was born pretty much two years ago that I wanted to make a difference somehow someway and here I am. To some it is a little crazy…

Feeling Loved

So lately I have been reaching out to people in my life. Especially those I really care about and miss. I was starting to take it personal when you could see they read your messages and just ignore you. Or theirs the ones you constantly try and visit with but they are just too busy….

War within Us

How do we know what battles to engage in and which ones to passively let by. Do we engage in the ones that affect the heart, mind or soul? Do you engage in nothing and just live at Peace? Can we truly live at Peace if we are battling a war amongst ourself? When do…

Trouble in Paradise

I just don’t feel like being sick should be an exscuse to treat each other poorly. When it comes to him sometimes he just gets right under my skin like a burning rash that won’t go away. The smallest little irritance become the hugest deal in the world. For example, I know he’s tired and…

The Darkness

When do you decide to finally leave all the negativity behind? What happens when the person you were born to love and respect becomes the darkness you were trying to avoid? What if the darkness was keeping them from seeing the world around them? The fear of finally being able to let go or just…

Why Pinup?

Alot of people always wonder how did I decide that I wanted to live a pinup lifestyle. It started simply at first…a love for fashion. A love for standing out in a crowd and being able to bring a smile to those paths you cross. People remember you. Which is an odd thing to say…