Tired of Trying To Fit In…(or maybe just tired)

I always wanted to fit it. Always. I was a shy young girl and found it hard at first but making friends became easy. It was keeping them that was a bit harder. My desire to fit in was more like a desire…a desire to be popular but only with the boys. I guess that…

Life Itself

As my boys slept I happened apon this movie on Netflix, “Life Itself”. I have never heard of it and such is life when you rely on Netflix I thought I had seen or knew of what was on their playlist. The movie is a narrative that tells the storey from each individuals perspective and…

The Breakup

In today’s modernized world it seems that the Breakup is the greatest contingency plan that we all carry in our back pockets. Afraid to committ, afraid of not getting our way, afraid of losing who we are…are the one of millions exscuses we get when our significant other moves on. In some cases we are…

40 year old virgin?

Alright! So it seems like I have an even bigger mountain to climb than I had expected. Silly me for thinking that after two years of intimacy that it could be so easily changed. I kind of went with the age old clause that he was a man and most men need some level of…

Blessed

When everything is truly all said and done I do know that I am really blessed. It is still hard to accept this wonderful life that I had spent forever wishing for. You do truly become your own worst enemy at times and its only for those times leading up that you established a connection…

Look At Me

When the time to finally take a look inside of ourselves is finally here will we look at what relects back onto us and like what we see? Do we cringe at what we have done or will be doing and the thought of those actions we lose site of those consequences. In a world…

A Gal Pal like Liz

Well I finally did it! I finished my book, “How to be a Movie Star”. Can I be honest I had no idea the magic that was Liz Taylor. It was so fascinating to read about how one would hope it would be being famous in the 1950’s. It is so much different now. Liz…

Message from Beyond

This is it. The day is almost here where I make my first public appearance as Sweet Ruby Bluez. I can’t believe it is almost here. The idea was born pretty much two years ago that I wanted to make a difference somehow someway and here I am. To some it is a little crazy…

40’s the new 20’s

On Friday I had the extreme pleasure to travel to Vancouver for a photoshoot that I had won back in the summer. Originally we had wanted to travel as a family but this photographer is very sought after in the pinup community so not wanting it to expire we decided that it would be best…

It starts with a Smile

This is the day that started it all. Look at that smile. I was grinning from ear to ear just being on stage. There was an amazing group of ladies. Everybody was so unique, so beautiful, so inspiring. Basking in the light and energy of all the ladies there I just wanted to let that…