I can’t listen to this anymore. The fear of hearing all the ways that people in my life hate me just chills me to the core inside. Is there anything I can do to be forgiven for all the mistakes I have made? I feel desperate, scared, sick and confused.
Category: relationship
Mean Girls
I hated myself so much and I was barely a girl. Nothing nice was said about me as I was left alone in the world. With nobody to talk to I spent most of my days alone. It took everything I could just to want to stay alive here when it could have been easier to leave and make that final journey home.
Tell Em What’s Up
Why are we so upset with a woman who is so in control of her own desires and needs? She is so confident in how she wants her future unfold that she can walk away from everything and still pave her way in this cold world. We fail to understand how the desires of so many can have a detrimental affect to ones health. Now ask yourself what makes us stay with a partner that doesn’t have our best interests at heart and can you walk away? Not many can.
When Personalities Clash
There is something to be said for this time of my life that feels so isolated and lonely. I am scared to open up to anybody anymore because in the end all they do is leave me. Once they know who I am it is easy to hate me. I am just a monster of a human who has gotten lost in my attempts to honour my own identity.
Tyrannical Rage
Today is the day. I hope that I have the courage to do all the things that I have been too scared to do. Find a job. Apply for low-income housing and hope and pray that this nightmare will soon be going away. I get scared thinking that all the pets that have come to call this place their home might end up meeting their own demise. I can’t be the one holding a noose over their heads. Well, a needle jabbed into their arm but how much longer can I survive having to live this way? I don’t think I can survive knowing that they met their end because of me.
Alive Outside Broken Within
It is in that simplicity in knowing that I am in fact part of a bigger picture. We all are. For no reason we find ourselves living at the same time bound by our place in eternity. This moment will soon be forgotten with nobody left to bring it back to life. That is so powerful in itself to think about.
Unloved in Life
There is no escaping the fear that comes when those in your life are content in beating you to death with your own fears. I know what I hate about myself and you do too. Why do you have to use it against me like you just found out how to use the ultimate tool. Behaviour like this just turns me off and pushes me far off farther to the side.
Heart Broken and Numb
I have spent so much time staring in I no longer recognize that I am not included. I have learned to be kind and gentle to myself because that is always needed. And I learned more than likely when you do the right thing and you are scared of sticking out that that is when you find yourself as the odd one out.
You! Ya You!
I am tired. I try so hard. My whole existence has been spent in the shadows. I long to come out. My heart is bursting to be free. I wonder if anybody will notice me or if I am destined to always feel like this. Two days in a row my husband’s dog has ruined…
Till Death Do Us Part
What happened to that? What would even be the point of even reciting these vows if it was something you knew you were never going to honour in the first place. Imagine. You know deep down that you are polyamorous. You knew deep down that these exact words you would call into question at some…
Miss Ruby Sweet Cheeks 
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