Just a Housewife

It has to be me. I must be manic. My preconceived ideal of how marriage exists doesn’t exist at all. It was never even real to begin with. Growing up I remember my mom doing more traditional women roles and my dad was just ol hard working man. On weekends he would be doing your…

Like Mind Like You

I guess in essence this is how most of us feel, isn’t it. My husband is always asleep and never notices me. Unless of course I am spending money then nothing gets him picking up the phone faster. My son is screaming in that language that I should understand but it is the last word…

Of Love and Light

For every moment I found myself loved I found myself gravitating light. There is this overpowering emotion that erupts when you start echoing the sounds of your true heart. Moments in time take us to where we need to go to be frozen in eternity. Impervious to all other surroundings, peaceful in our serenity. If…

The Crossroads of Denial and Realism

I had to. I had to come downstairs. Correction run downstairs after  I don’t know how many glasses of champagne. I have to write. Almost like keep taunting me and telling me I am worthless and all I want to do is prove you wrong. How many edibles do you feed me before you knocked…

Ground Into Dust

Our own existence we depleted until it became ground into dust and held no value for anybody anymore. Look at the way we berate each other for insignificant differences that really only bring attention to the offender and no one else. Imagine if we lost the ability to see like so many of our fellow…

What is Madness?

What is madness anyways other than somebody else’s misconceptions of what they believe to be an ideal way. An ideal way of thinking, being, dressing, existing. There is torture beyond your own conceivable mind if you entertain the polluted thoughts of another. Let them lead themselves down their own path of destruction.  For example how…

One More Day of Sanity

One more day of sanity or at least I am made to believe that is what this is. I ask you if it is sane to read right before coming to this page that a school boy bashed the head in of a newborn calf minutes after it was born right in front of it’s…

In Defense of Our Children

So many of you are quick to pass blame or pity on how it is that I can sit here in a marriage that isn’t ideal. For starters for better or worse, and sickness and in health. He had my back at a time when nobody did. So as a wife I also need to…

One Flew Over the Proverbial Cuckoo’s Nest

It seems these days we are either dying to stick in or dying to stick out. For those who always seem to be thrust into the limelight all they want is the peace that comes when tranquility sets in. Then there are those who are destined to live in the shadows who hope to one…

“The World’s Too Big, Mom”

Sitting there with my sweet son watching the Man of Steel hearing these words resonated through me. It touched a place in my heart that was still raw. Somehow though looking over and watching him I thought about what would have happened to all of us if we did keep our world small. Not naïve…