The Missing Piece

They say when you awake in the middle of the night and can’t fall back to sleep that it is because you are inhabiting somebody else’s dreams. I have had that illusion before where although awake you feel out of your body almost in a trance like dream state. You feel your presence come in…

Live Broken or Die Trying

My guilt eats away at me knowing that in my younger years I was the very toxic pollution that I have now come to hate. Maybe that is why it has become important to me to open up my life. My life in all it’s plain and basic splendor actually help me to understand who it is I am supposed to become. It isn’t for a lack of trying or misunderstanding but a veil of doubt and insecurity that haunts me.

The Fear of Isolation

It would take almost 2 decades for me to recognize the loss from that decision that day. And that really only evolved because I stopped EVERYTHING I was doing and changed my course. I had to. As the clock kept on ticking so did that dream of having a family and that desire to grow old with someone….see there it is again!

Why I Chose to Believe in Myself

As I sit and write yet another post that some maybe be interested in and some not I ask myself why? The answer is simple: If something ever happens to me my son will never forget who I am. I feel there is value in the wisdom that I have.  I want to capture the…

The Ultimate Pin-Up Summer

Plato once said that life is when the soul meets with matter. Our souls are all held captive inside these bodies that we will to meet our every demand. We push ourselves to limits we could only imagine possible all to become better than the next. In a world where everybody has become yet another…

Learning to Love the Negative

We all have those days when we wish that we hadn’t have bothered getting out of bed at all. I probably should have cancelled the day on Monday but being one for torture I allowed it to continue. As frustrated as I was when it was all happening I knew that all these little nuances…

Empath or Emotional? You be the Judge

Empath: This is the official definition of the American Empath Association: An Empath is someone who understands the mental or emotional states of others in a way that defies conventional science and psychology. Empaths have the ability to sense the feelings, thoughts, and energies of people, plants, animals, places, or objects. In addition to sensing,…

The Truth is Out There

We all want to hope that there is something after all this existence. For me it boils down to how can there be so much pain in suffering with their being know release in the end? How can the only reward for a life well lived be death? When evil and good get the same…

40’s the new 20’s

On Friday I had the extreme pleasure to travel to Vancouver for a photoshoot that I had won back in the summer. Originally we had wanted to travel as a family but this photographer is very sought after in the pinup community so not wanting it to expire we decided that it would be best…

It starts with a Smile

This is the day that started it all. Look at that smile. I was grinning from ear to ear just being on stage. There was an amazing group of ladies. Everybody was so unique, so beautiful, so inspiring. Basking in the light and energy of all the ladies there I just wanted to let that…