Becoming My Own Best Friend

I don’t have the means to make it in Hollyeood but in my family I am the biggest star. Doesn’t that count for something? Shouldn’t that feel just as good? I love myself to be the light in every room because I was blessed a second chance and I promise you I am going to take it. I am going to love on myself so hard until the day I die and I don’t need anybody in particular who I love most of all is me. I was the only one who was always standing here when nobody else could. Should I feel shame for being the best friend I needed in life when nobody else would?

Eye to Eye

You can’t win for trying when you fail to see eye to eye. Well not eye to eye. I dare you to look in deep. The eyes are the windows to the soul if you believe that and me. I also believed that like I believed in our souls. So much can be learned in their depths and remind us what it is that we can lose if we continue to play the game this way.

Lighter Than Air

When the going gets tough it is always at our own expense. During moments of heightened emotional awareness sometimes it is hard for us to do what is right. Well to do what is right for us. Nobody holds the answer to that piece. That piece is only left for us to find. We know that feeling of giving us goose bumps and making everything inside us wake up and become alive. I know how to honor my own existence so why seek outward validation over and over again. At naseauting quantities and speed.

Be Different! Be Weird!!

That it is OK to be different, to be weird, to march to the beat of a different type of drum. I do it with pride and I do it as not to conform or succumb. So I may lose followers at the end of the day I just got to keep repeating…YOU ARE LOVED! YOU ARE WORTHY! YOU ARE EVERYTHING JUST BECAUSE! All I need is my acceptance that I will be OK. That days will get better as long as I have my say.

Do As You Do

Be kind because it is easier than being a pompous *ss. Be kind because it feels good to your heart and it feels better than being sad. Don’t you think there is less problems that arise when you are kind and have a pure heart? At least that is what I have come to experience. Do onto others as you would do onto you and if you can’t be nice just shuffle along and keep doing as you do.

Lust In My Heart

Think of how lack lustered some are when they lose that physical connection with life? We always define our existence by who was by our side. Why can’t we be the ones to lift ourselves up? To sing our own praises even become our own ride and die. Oh she’s so vain. Is she? Or is she just sick of this sh*t. Waiting for somebody to validate her like she couldn’t be the one to do it herself.

To Find Peace

I live in a world where a young woman’s life being snuffed out to soon is being compared to as not wanting to take a vaccine. My heart shatters as I understand the gravity of her last words and I cry because she never should have died. To be so brave in your life that you never gave up fighting. I hope the world can realize the magnitude of your sacrifice. I hope that one day we can so you can finally be at peace.

Filled With Dread

This is my worst nightmare but where does one even begin to try to pack up a life to leave. His yells just echo inside my head. They are making me crazy. Making feel nothing but dread.

Our Worst Image

I embrace being a woman because I love who I am and everything else in the middle that makes me me. It does take a minute or two to get on the right track but when it all begins to happen don’t you ever look back! Maybe to self reflect or to remind you how far you have gone but it is only for a quick visit don’t take up residency and stay indefinetly. A lot can happen in a day and a lot can’t happen too.

Hold My Breath

There is no good to come out of staying in his vicinty I wonder if I hold my breathe love will see me through? To have a man yell at you in anger for just taking up space is more than my childlike heart can even bare or even take. One day something will come and save me. My only hope is I am alive to see that day through. To be married to a man who sees more value in your demise than he has ever seen in your smile makes me want to say goodbye to this life once and for all.