I will be honest I have stayed away from the facts of this war. I have become so consumed with my family life that I barely have time to come up for air. All I can protect is the energy in this house in between these four walls. Our existence will burn out together in a timeline we will never be able to predict. If a bomb were to sale over the seas and connect with my country it is very possible that there will be no more you and me. Should I be ok with that? What if that is all I can be. Accept the things you can not change and keep on keeping on like you have always did. I created a minimal super crazy existence. When all things are considered I only have the time to perfect this life that I am already in. I love that I can bring so much happiness in just doing my best. And on the days I am too tired, just showing up will always be just more than enough.
We are more than selfish in the way we conduct ourselves and you can see it in our holier than though perception of things. We believe it is enough as long as it is not happening to us and provide just enough comfort to make it seem like we aren’t vain.
If history is destined to repeat itself what makes us so blind. Is it because we have become numb to the transgressions muting our inner voice. We had a year which was supposed to serve and solitude and look what we have done. We have those that are supposed to lead us and show us…
The only thing that doesn’t die is or mind we just change forms and let go. If it were up to me I would try and honor all those lives that came before me. Who am I but a mere human capable of something great that nobody will ever know.
We are doing the same things with the other inhabitants of the Earth. Evil doesn’t want to share the gifts of the Earth. The self righteous mind will do anything to keep others at bay. My mind tirelessly looks for the pieces that may come together and try to make sense of what became of the living that now lies broken some extinct.
So now with the scent of death filling up my nostrils I again have to ask myself, if I died tomorrow would I even be remembered? My Aunt simply told me to care for my own space. Give thanks where and when thanks is due but no more.
Why do some suffer while others get everything handed to them with a silver spoon and then some. When did all these laws and decisions get passed down and who did they benefit. How come all of a sudden after billions of years of evolution we have evolved in such a way that we are incredibly desensitized to our surroundings and now it seems we are digressing