The Crossroads of Denial and Realism

I had to. I had to come downstairs. Correction run downstairs after¬† I don’t know how many glasses of champagne. I have to write. Almost like keep taunting me and telling me I am worthless and all I want to do is prove you wrong. How many edibles do you feed me before you knocked…

A Fairytale Gone Wrong

I can’t imagine the life one has to endure in order to deem it necessary to have all their pieces squished back together. You can never be rebuilt the same. When something rocks you to your core and brings you to the brinks of your own sanity what could it all mean anyways? For some…

The Wall

There is only so much one person can take when it seems like they are talking to a wall. No matter how hard I beat my head against it there is nobody there to answer me. Sometimes I feel I must have died and I am here to float above the other’s existence. There is…

My Beautiful Friend

If I go through those hospital doors again like it was the first time do you promise to wake up? I guess by the time we got there you were already gone it was just so hard for us to let go. Maybe if I blamed you it would make it easier on my heart…

Ground Into Dust

Our own existence we depleted until it became ground into dust and held no value for anybody anymore. Look at the way we berate each other for insignificant differences that really only bring attention to the offender and no one else. Imagine if we lost the ability to see like so many of our fellow…

What is Madness?

What is madness anyways other than somebody else’s misconceptions of what they believe to be an ideal way. An ideal way of thinking, being, dressing, existing. There is torture beyond your own conceivable mind if you entertain the polluted thoughts of another. Let them lead themselves down their own path of destruction.¬† For example how…

Land of No Good

In the land of not good enough all I hear is that I am no good. One only needs to know of my story to grasp what I am talking about. Within these four walls there is more animal life than human. That is a whole heck of all of potential miscommunication from all angles…

One Foot in the Grave

I keep one foot in the grave because admitting to be an active participant in whatever this life is has become far too much. We live in this world where everybody wants to save these closest racists from going under fire. Why do I have to walk amongst those that show over and over again…

Mentally Exhausted Living Free Extinct

I don’t understand what makes somebody think in such damaged proportions to the point where an outcry of violence is all that is left. I can’t help but think about the times that my high school boyfriend grabbed his 3 year old sister by the neck and threw her into the drywall. Her cries were…

An Untimely Demise

Psssttt over here! Just between you and me. Are you listening? I have been plagued with these thoughts that I just need to express. I trust you. Will you listen? Will you tell me what you think? I have spent my lifetime trying to reach the deepest, darkest corners of my mind to make sense…